in exclusive conversation with Vinita Dawra Nangia, ns Director of Times Litfest And the actress, executive editor of ETimes, thought about the reason why she decided to take stock of her life so far at this point in her life. Like many of her peers, the actress also found ample time to reflect and reflect on herself during the coronavirus-induced lockdown. “I had signed with publishers two-three times in the last 10-15 years, but I used to start writing and get stuck; I wasn’t ready and it didn’t happen. But in the pandemic, when I was in my Mukteshwar home for about six months, I didn’t have much to do and found time to think about my life: what I learned, what I had to do. Suddenly, I started writing, and then I didn’t stop,” she smiled.
In the book, the actress has mentioned how her father had two complete families and used to divide his time between them, spend nights with the other family, and even split his holidays between them. When asked whether it was particularly difficult to inform readers about her parents’ unusual relationship, noting how strongly her mother had kept the truth from coming out, and assessing that it did. How it affected his psyche, eventually wrote chapters on his demise, Nina Nodded in positive. “My mother killed herself in an attempt to hide what my father had done to her. I think that’s why I wrote this book when my father, mother, brother and sister-in-law are no more. I don’t think I would have written it if my parents or brothers were alive. I guess it was also one of the reasons I can write now,” she relayed, more to herself than anyone. The actress then admitted that it was too difficult to write chapters on the deaths of her mother, father, and brother. “Sometimes I would write a page and after that, I wouldn’t write for a week. While some things went very smoothly, I had a lot of problems with these chapters,” she confessed.
But did writing all this prove to be the catharsis she needed? Nina paused for a beat before replying, “I thought this would help, but in regards to this, I don’t know… I feel numb. I don’t know if it all came up. Me. I am often asked if now that I have written it down, everything is out of my system and I feel relieved, but on introspection I realize that nothing has happened. Maybe because I did that Didn’t write everything I wanted to write and left out some things. I’ve changed most of their names and even hid some things because my heart didn’t agree with me talking about it. I guess maybe that’s why it’s on now is also within me; my heart is not completely light,” she said.
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