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Sridevi was found dead of accidental drowning in her hotel room in Dubai in 2018.
Janhvi Kapoor revealed that she felt that seeking validation from her audience after Sridevi’s death displaced sadness.
bollywood actress Jhanvi Kapoor talks candidly about overcoming the death of her mother and legendary actress Sridevi, seeking recognition from audiences and dealing with hurtful comments about her privilege.
Janhvi was speaking at the flagship festival We the Women, curated by journalist Barkha Dutt. The conversation took an emotional turn as Janhvi talked about Sridevi’s death and how she started acting as a distraction.
“I don’t think I dealt with it for very long. I don’t think I went about it the way I should have gone about it… My life was completely different when we had him.” And when we lost him, I was bang in the middle of shooting for my first film. It was almost like the life I was living before his death was an idealistic and imaginary life… This COVID It was during that time when I was forced to spend time with myself that I realized how damaged I was. I was almost like a zombie… on a hamster wheel doing things that made me I didn’t have to, in a race that didn’t require me to be with myself and seek the company of people I didn’t really want just to fill a void in my life,” she said. Choked and said.
She further described the “strange guilt” she felt after her mother’s death. “When I lost my mother, of course it was a great tragedy and there was a hole in my heart but it was a terrible feeling that because of my privilege and being told my whole life that I got things so easily There was this weird guilt that I deserved this horrible, horrible thing that happened to me… That feeling was such a weird thing to process as a young girl,” the actor said.
Janhvi said that she later realized that seeking validation from her audience after her mother’s death was out of place. “I think I started seeking the validation and approval that I sought from my mother… Not everyone in the world is going to love you like they’re your mother.”
The actress, known for her roles in films like Gunjan Saxena: The Kargil Girl and Mili, spoke of wanting respect beyond stardom. “It might hurt my ego a bit to be unimportant in a film because I have so much to offer and I want to prove to myself that I can take up a challenge… It comes down to the fact that the opportunity comes very easily but the respect is not there yet. That’s why I am working on it.
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